Yes... I gave my children a celebrity couple name and I love it.
I am currently on my 4th day of being a stay at home mom and I am absolutely exhausted! I am also a little too emotional. Seriously, I am crying at the drop of a hat. TV is the worst. I watched the People's Choice Awards and cried like a baby. I watched Parenthood and cried like a baby (not sure that counts because I'm pretty sure everyone who watches this show cries no matter what, especially this season) I look at my kids and I cry. I'm not sure if I'm crying because I am so completely exhausted due to the fact that I haven't really gotten much rest this week or because I am just an emotional person, but it's a little bit out of control.
Besides the crying, I have been blessed to learn so much more about my children in these past few days. First of all, I am so happy that Aniston still loves Benson as much as she did when he was in my belly. She obsesses over him. Anytime he cries or fusses she wants to take care of him, she is constantly worried that he needs her. I love the love that she has for him!
I have learned that Aniston has unfortunately inherited my OCD tendencies.
I have learned that Benson is very different from Aniston. Aniston never liked to be cuddled as a baby and this little man wants to be held constantly. Thank goodness for my wrap because if I didn't have that I would never get anything done! Aniston loved to be swaddled all the time, but at 4am every morning Benson starts grunting and fighting to have his arms free. It's also around this time that he decides that the only way he will sleep if if I lay on my back and lay him on my right side in the crook of my arm. Of course this means I don't sleep because I am not comfortable sleeping in the same bed as my infant. I have learned that Benson has inherited my grumpy sassiness that accompanies hunger. This boy can go from completely content and happy to screaming like nothing I have ever heard in the snap of a finger because he decides that he is hungry. But even if he is starving (which he never is he just thinks that he is) he will instantly calm down and almost always fall asleep if I pick him up and hold him on my chest with his head on my shoulder.
I'm not going to lie. I have lost my temper more than I can count in the past 4 days. I have escaped from the neediness and cries in the bathroom for several minutes. I have even questioned my decision a time or two. But I know, without a doubt, that this is what I am suppose to be doing right now. It's the hardest job I have ever had, but I know that it will be the most rewarding. My appreciation and love for my own mom, who was a stay at home mom, has grown immensely. I never understood how hard she actually worked, and I am so ashamed to say that I really thought staying at home was easy. But it's not. I look at my friends who have been doing it for years and I just think that they are so amazing! I am thankful that I have so many women in my life that I can look to for strength and that have offered me help or just an ear to vent to. That means so much to me, especially since we seem to live in a world where friends are based on convenience.